Making it MOVE!

Weight: 304.5                  Total: 18.5    Average for the week:??

I DID IT!! I got that blasted scale to move! I am thinking about doing one more
day of low carb. Not sure though. What I do know, I woke up at 4:30 am, I am
feeling alive again! Oh, and I got that damn scale to MOOOVE!!

All day yesterday, while I went to a bogus interview and then Walmart orientation, I
had a "skinny day." You know those days that you feel light on your feet, and your
clothes fit well, and you simply FEEL smaller?! Yeh, one of those days!

My daughter and I were talking and really I have gone down almost 2 pant sizes. From
a extremely tight 24 to a loose 22. I can see the rationale in that, because truly if I had
been willing to buy a 26, they probably would have fit!

Anywho, even though I am heavier than when I met my hubby, by about 15 pounds, I
am actually smaller in size. That is strange to me, but maybe it's from the Pilates elon-
gating my body.

I'm not sure how to add my average this week. At the beginning of the week I had a spike
to 306, then back down to 304. So it will either be a negative loss, or .08 loss, so I'll just
skip the technicalities of the math this week, and enjoy the progress. Maybe by the end of
this week I can get under 300 lbs?! Maybe, it's possible!

I am just one...

Thank you for you for reading, your +ones, and shares. It means bunches to me, and I
hope my journey helps you!

HUGGZZ
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Brunch
2 eggs
2 pieces baked bacon

Dinner
7 hot wings-ranch
spinach salad with cukes, tomato, and shredded cheese-ranch


(OH, and I forgot to add, even though I did a lot of walking yesterday, I DID NOT sweat!)

Breaking The Plateau-Briser le plateau-Romper la meseta

Weight: 306.5

Yesterday I called myself having a carb day in efforts to break the plateau. I can not eat
the way I used to by any means. I didn't want pancakes, or pizza, or burgers. I literally
had to force myself to indulge a little and I felt yucky.

I even had my choice of whatever I wanted for dinner, I chose a salad and wings. I had
a gourmet pizza for breakfast (good but not grand), and ham and cheese sandwich for
lunch. Let me stop here.

I have been looking at this butter bread all week, thinking damn I'd love to make a sand-
wich with that. It was so disappointing, because I did not like it...but I still ate it. I know,
poor me, right?!

I had some Sprite and a Pepsi...now that Pepsi with a cigarette was GREAT!!! I also had
a snack fest with the hubby while we watched "Django." I started to log my food, but then
gave up. I figured after six devoted weeks to logging and focus, I should try to enjoy the
day, because there won't be another unless I plateau again.

I was totally prepared to see a spike on the scale today, and I will be okay. I just need it
to move! I don't want to go for weeks on end without losing at all! That is for the birds,
or maybe a more patient person.

I am so looking forward to today being totally low carbohydrates...ALL DAY LONG!
I feel like crap this morning! Weirdest conclusion ever! I always thought my excessive
sweat was from sweating through the pain. I now think it has something to do with the
carbs! I was not in pain yesterday at all, and I was sweating like someone was trickling
water on the top of my head! I haven't sweat like that in weeks.

Yesterday, I went shopping for uniforms. I took a size 22 and a size 24 for each pair
of pants that I picked. I didn't even have to try on the 24's, I am officially a 22 again!!
YEA ME!!

Some may argue that I was just holding my weight while my body adjusted. This
motivated momma says "I ain't got no time fo dat!"

HUGGZZ

Being Proactive

Weight: 305.8

I still haven't moved an ounce. I have only heard of such things, and I'm not willing for it
to stay like this. Getting the next 15-20 lbs off is crucial. Hell, it's all crucial, but the next
15-20 pounds deal with mobility.

I was toying with the idea of having a carbohydrate rich day, but I really don't want it. I
have very little desire for carbs. I had a piece of cake last night for Jericho's birthday, my
little bug in the rug is 12 now and not so little anymore. The cake was very rich, good,
but almost too rich.

I've also thought about doing very low carb, but more frequent meals. I would have to,
to keep my blood sugar from plummeting. Since I rarely feel hunger anymore, that just
doesn't sound feasible.

Needless to say, I am PETRIFIED to change my way of eating! If I had gained or lost
even a smidge I wouldn't be worried at all, but I have heard that plateaus have lasted
weeks to months. I am just to proactive to let that happen!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
1 can no salt green beans with a pinch of kosher salt and butter (also no salt)
3-4 oz cheeseburger, no bun or extras

Reward Meal
Spinach salad-cukes, tomato, beets- sweet vidalia dressing
1 1/2 cups cheesy mac bake with kielbasa and broccolli
1/2 Dannon cherry yogurt
1 big slice of birthday cake (yellow mix with chocolate, I substitute the oil with applesauce)

No Loss, But No Gain

Weight: 305.8 STILL!

Apparently, my scale is just STUCK! I haven't moved an ounce either way for days.
It is so unnerving. I was having trouble eating enough, and added a meal, which lead
to a 2 lb gain. I switched back and lost one of those pounds, but now nothing, nothing,
NOTHING!

I have even added daily exercise. I was trying to stay low impact 3-4 times a week. A
short walk, shooting hoops, Pilates, stretching, and occasionally Dance Central. Now
I'm up to longer walks and the rest, but everyday. Switching it up so it doesn't get
redundant or boring.

I will not give up! For the first time ever I am not giving up on the diet. I've said this before,
even if I never lost another pound (which please G'd don't let that be the issue) I love this
way of eating. My energy levels are unbelievable, my blood sugar is not swinging back
and forth, my hair and nails are growing stronger and healthier, I feel stronger, and I sleep
better. There are probably more results, I just can't think of them.

So, if I'm not giving up, what do I do? I'm just not sure. I've bought some extra vitamins.
Now I'm taking five different ones.

*multivitamin
*calcium
*potassium
*vitamin E
*Vitamin C

I keep forgetting to get a fiber supplement, but I have a tad bit of a theory which I
have not researched. If I'm not getting enough potassium, I believe my body may
think I'm dehydrated and retain the weight.

I did look at my the graph where I log my food, and I am under in potassium almost
everyday. So, we'll see. I never thought about actually logging my multivitamin though,
good grief!

I didn't post yesterday because I had been hired to clean out someone's garage. I went
early and we had it done by noon. Last night I could feel the good burn in my tummy,
but I may have pulled my shoulder wrong because it burns from the cuff to my wrist.

I put the money to good use. I took half for an upgrade to my frumpy self and
took the other half for my son's birthday today. I had my eyebrows waxed (not like they
are out of control anyways-they are so light you can barely see them), got my hair cut
and dyed it. I have to say I feel much better!

My little girl has a friend's birthday party to go to today also. Of course she is bumbling
about getting ready hours and hours ahead time! This leaves my "me time" to about 10
minutes this morning! Don't get me wrong, I love every moment good or bad, but with
seven kids I cherish my  new found alone time every morning! It's almost like a reset,
or a mini vacation everyday.

The best part about it, I think it makes me a better, more patient and happier mum! That's
what my kids deserve!

I guess I must go and bid you good day! In any event, I hope that I inspire at least one
person.

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
2 Jr bacon cheeseburgers extra pickle, no bun

Reward meal
1/2 Wendy's small chili
1 grilled chicken wrap
3/4 baked potato with sour cream and butter
2 bites of hubby's pretzel burger
Spinach salad with tomato, cukes, beets, colby and monterrey jack cheese- sweet vidalia dressing

Cursed

Weight: 306.8            

I didn't blog yesterday. I was really too irritated to be any good. I tried to quit smoking, I
lasted until about 9 pm. I really can't explain how I was feeling.

I am, and was, even more annoyed that my weight loss has seemed to slow to a halt and
now is coming back up! I have a few words here, that I am just not going to say.

My average calorie intake is about 1500. I SHOULD BE STEADILY losing, especially
since that is about HALF of what I used to eat! I am starting to question, whether I
should go back mostly low carb.

I don't want to be unhealthy. I know my body needs fruits and other fibers. I really don 't
know what to do except stay on this path. I don't want to gain back all of the weight I've
already lost.

I even have changed my deserts most nights to a Fiber One bar, instead of a cookie or
what have you.

So, when I say I'm too irritated to be any good. I really mean it.

Here is what I do consistently every day. I drink 3 cups of black coffee, 1- 1 1/2 gallons
of water, a multivitamin, 1 low carb brunch, and my reward meal which is full of the dairy,
and fruits that I need to be healthy, but well within the 60 minutes suggested. I've also
been doing some kind of exercise 3-4 times a week.

Maybe it is just my body regrouping. Maybe it's not all that I it's cracked up to be. Maybe
I am just cursed to be a fat person with a fractured back, and that's how my life is going
to be.

I am whining straight from my pitty pot.

I've also thought about changing my meals around. Higher carb for brunch and low carb
for dinner. I just don't know if watching my kids eat normally while I eat an egg is going
to work.

I hope your day is more clear and uncomplicated than mine today.

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Baked chicken breast (dipped in mayo and hot sauce)
1 can green beans

Reward Meal
1/2 cup roasted redskin potatoes (maybe not even that)
1 cup strawberry yogurt
1 cup 1% milk
Fiber One bar
Sliced apple with peanut butter
1 med banana
1 chili dog

Sampler

Weight: 304.8      Total: -18.2     Average: -1.4 (for the week)

Seems as though my weight loss was slower this week. I did do a bit of weight
training yesterday with my Mr. Awesome. We have this hideous eye sore in the
middle of our living room, because the skeeters are just to bad to work out in the
garage.

I had him show me how to adjust it for different things, and did some reps for
my triceps and biceps. If it's gonna be in the house might as well skip the gym
payment and use it. We still need to replace a few things, to work on the lower
body though.

I've also decided to come up with a schedule of exercise, so it's not the same
thing everyday. I hate exercise anyways, add the same ones everyday and there is
NO enthusiasm for it at all! BORING!

I have three really big worries about my body losing weight. First, is my arms.
They have always been big, so I want them to not only to be proportionate, but
also not so saggy. Second, my tummy and the extra skin that is bound to be there.
Third, the inside of my thighs.

Last night was sampler night. It's a way to expand the kids palate, for things
besides burgers and pepperoni pizza. So, basically the table is full with different
things to try. Sometimes there is a theme, sometimes not. Also we try to include
a few things not so exotic, so our more picky ones don't go to bed hungry.

We had 2 different kinds of empanadas (pork and chicken), dry rub ribs, cheesy
focaccia bread, Caribbean rice and bean salad, carrots and green beans, Santa Fe
Chicken pizza, Greek artichoke salad, and beef bean burritos. I had a little of every-
thing, and again was surprised that I didn't do so badly. I am more worried about
the sodium, because since it was mostly deli food, there is no nutritional value to
calculate.


All through the night I had weird dreams. First I fell asleep on the couch and, for
what had been quite a while, I dreamed that I had to pee so bad that I couldn't walk.
In every sequence I would find a nasty bathroom, some with diseased people. At the
end of every sequence I would realize that I really have to go to the bathroom and
dream that I woke myself up to go.

Man, by the time I woke up I was in pain and barely got to the potty on time. After
I crawled into bed with Rob, I continued to have weird story like dreams. It was a
restless night.

The girls woke up early excited about picture day, so I guess I'm off. May your day
be wonderful with the wind at your back and sunshine on your face.

HUGGZZ

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Complimentary Meal
2 scrambled eggs with slice of American cheese
1 slice bacon
1 stalk celery with cream cheese

Reward meal
Sampler night as stated in body

Sleep Walking

Weight: 304.8                   Total: -18.2

The weirdest thing happened last night. I woke up in the middle of the night and for some
reason thought I was late getting up, and it had eaten into my "me time." I tried to wake
my hubby who had fallen asleep on the couch again watching a movie, but he barely
moved.

I went ahead and made a cup of coffee, then tried to wake him again, "Switch." Still hardly any response. I go out to the porch and weigh myself, 306.1. Great, now it's going to be one of those days!

A third time trying to wake the man finally achieves some result. Promptly I go to
myfitnesspal.com to see how all of my "friends" have done, and realize it didn't
complete my food diary for yesterday. No matter how many times I click it, it says
the same thing. Yep, it's going to be one of those days!

I was so irritated I closed the computer, laid down on the couch and decided to sleep
until it was school time for the kids. It was only 6 am when I woke up, and I know I
slept longer than 30 minutes. Heaven knows what ungodly hour I was up last night!
When I weighed a second time it was back down to 304.2! Maybe, just maybe, it
won't be one of those days!

I think yesterday, my food was the best I've ever done! I am getting used to sodium
counts, nutritional counts, and caloric contents in food.
This IS NOT a count your calorie lifestyle! But I have noticed if I watch the calories
consumed, I am less likely to be unreasonable and more likely to have healthy moderate
meals.

I am not only a carbohydrate addict, I am a food addict. I tend to use food like I used
drugs so many years ago. So tracking my intake has given me a "don't be stupid" tool.
I do encourage you, not to take away from the life saving book the Heller's wrote, to go to myfitnesspal.com and join. Find members that encourage you daily, listen to you
whine, understand your struggles, give you advice about toning, and leave inspiring
threads with success stories.

I do believe two things. The Carbohydrate Addict's book was put down because the
people who read it, did not really read it. You can have anything you want, as long as
it's balanced. Balance is the key, and unfortunately it was completely over looked for
the excuse to be pigs. Do I eat cake? YES. Do I eat it every night? ABSOLUTELY NOT!
One can not expect to be healthy by eating unhealthy.

As the days go by I want to meet the Heller's to ask them questions, and see if I intuitively
picked this diet apart right to get to it's core. Firmly there is some correlation to preventing
the cravings and achieving a healthy caloric goal. I do it everyday with barely any effort.
Most days I even have to make myself eat, because the hunger is not there anymore.

The second, tracking your food, makes you accountable for yourself. It is very hard
to see our own miss givings, but if we take a look at them it gives us an opportunity
to change. Going blindly into a battle is not a very good decision, you are not going to
win. This weight issue we have is a battle. Not to be socially acceptable, but to extend
our lives and truly enjoy it.

I am on this journey, and yes it's long, but I will make it. However long or short my life
will be from here on out, I will enjoy it.

HUGGZZ

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Complimentary Meal
2 hard boiled eggs
1 1/2 Jimmy Dean Maple links

Complimentary Meal
2 cups sauteed cabbage in sesame oil (flavored with garlic and onion powder, pepper,
   and Ms. Dash original)
4 oz hamburger steak

Reward Meal
Spinach salad with tomatoes, beets, black olives-sweet vidalia dressing
1/2 Taco Bell soft taco
1 frozen burrito, beef and bean
1 Fiber One bar, chocolate peanut butter brownie