Not Such A Smooth Move, Ex-Lax!

Weight: 305.0                           Total: -18 lbs


What I may have found out is that eating breakfast makes me hungrier! It's not too big
of a surprise, it's been my biggest fault with caloric diets. Unlike those though, I was
able to hold out until 11:30 am, just about my regular lunch time anyways.

I also realized that green tea is not a replacement for my morning coffee (ha ha)! I do
like green tea, but I guess my body is used to having it woken up with a cup of Joe. As
a result, I dragged a bit yesterday.

Coffee also stimulates a bathroom visit, which since I didn't drink any, of course didn't
happen! That info might be TMI for some, but it's a very important thing for anyone trying
to lose. You can lose weight with out losing inches, and that malfunction is usually the
culprit.

If you think that this might be your problem, stay away from laxatives! They should only
be used in emergencies. As a teen my cousin was trying to lose weight for the Army and
was using them. Me thinking, cool an easy out, I started taking them. I lost weight, then
as soon as I stopped taking them, gained it back.

That wasn't the worst part. After stopping the use, I had to be put on Colace
(a stool softener) for YEARS just to go, and my dumping system has never
been the same since! So, if you are not regular in that department, here's a few
natural ideas, to help keep pace!

*coffee, my favorite

*lots of fiber, I sometimes use fiber gummies, they are high in carbs so I take them during
 RM's. There is also fiber pills, but I hate pills! (personal weirdness)

*water, water, WATER!

*Detox tea. It's great every once in a while, but if you take it everyday your body becomes
  used to it, and you stop seeing the motion. You can buy this at Vitamin Shoppe for about
  $3.

Exercise has not been on the menu for the past couple days. That is not the best, but it's
a school day, that means a walk to the school bus and back. Hopefully that will get my
blood pumping and I'll want to hit the court with Jude.

I stayed in bed a little longer, because Jude woke up and I wanted him to go back to
sleep, before getting out of bed. I'd rather be up by 4:30, but it was almost 6 this
morning and my "me time" has been cut! Bah!

Hope you all have an awesome day today!

HUGGZZ

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Complimentary Meal
2 hard boiled eggs

Complimentary meal
Approx 5 oz hamburger
2 slices bacon
1 slice 1% American cheese
1 can no salt green beans

Reward Meal
Spinach salad with cukes, tomato, beets, fried onions-ranch
1 cup House Mei Fun

1 gallon water, 3 cups green tea

I found this was a great balance last night. I was not hungry, but I wasn't uncomfortably
full. Though, I must say I was looking forward to a doughnut, and the hubby forgot to bring
one home!

Don't Go Hungry

                                      Weight: 305.9                    Total: 17.1

I'm seeing my meals get smaller and smaller, please know that I am only eating

what I am hungry for. The further I get into this way of eating, the less hungry I am.
DON'T GO HUNGRY!! I'm not, I didn't, and you shouldn't nor do you need to!

Eat as much as you need to get you through to the next meal, because there is NO
snacking, unless you are trying to maintain! If you need 3 eggs, 3 pieces of bacon,
and a salad or something else for your CM's do it! After a while you'll find that it's
less and less, at least that's what I'm experiencing!

Now, if I had some hamburger defrosted, I probably would have made a cheeseburger
(ha ha)! I really just wanted the prosciutto and provolone, and I was completely satisfied,
until about 5 hours later when it was time for dinner.

Everyone had Rally's last night. It was my first trip through a drive-thru window since I
started, and if I have my way it'll be my last. At first, I was going to pick something, and
then after feeling overwhelmed by the smell I couldn't get away fast enough. I did not like
the smell anymore even though I was hungry, and as I was driving home envisioned
myself throwing the crap out of the window.

As I logged my food in last night, I was so surprised that I had only consumed 1,099
calories come the end of the day. I felt like I pigged out! I really felt like I gorged myself
at dinner. Again, I am beside myself. This is a person who couldn't follow a 1800 calorie a
day diet...EVER!

Today, I will have to eat some breakfast, to try and raise my intake. I don't want my body
thinking it's in famine, and go into starvation mode. It does feel good to lose weight though!

Not even twenty pounds down and I am seeing awesome things. As I was cleaning and
walking down the hall, I noticed that the hall seemed wider. I was tidying up the kitchen
and was surprised at how fast I was doing it. I bounced up the stairs. I notice a slight
swing to my hips as I walked instead of a forced limp, because of back pain.

I won't know the full effect on my life until I get there, but I am coming Life, brace for impact!

HUGGZZ!


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Complimentary Meal
1 stalk celery with cream cheese
1 piece of prosciutto cut into 3 pieces
3 slices of smoked provolone rolled with the prosciutto

Reward Meal
2 Tyson panko chicken tenders
Spinach salad with cucumber, tomato, fried onion, beets-ranch
3 Rally fries...they weren't as good as I thought they'd be
2 bites of a Rally burger...was as good as I thought it'd be
1 small sweet potato with butter and skin

1 1/2 gallons water and 3 cups of coffee

Learning As I Go

Weight: 305.9                              Total: -17.1

Waking up today, I feel weird. I'm super jittery, almost like I had a breathing treatment or something.
I'm thinking I might need to take one of my chill pills, for anxiety. I haven't had to take on in over 6 months. I hate taking pills of any kind.

I walk around in pain because I refuse to take the pills my doctor's give me unless it's just too unbearable. I don't like the feeling. I was a drug addict (20 years ago), that was healed by G'd himself. After that, I have no desire to be anything but clear minded.

Man did I eat too much for my lunch yesterday! I was still way within my limits, but oh I was way too full! I have a very bad habit of being frugal and not wanting food to go to waste, almost to a fault.

The bacon basket: I wrap a slice of bacon around and down into a muffin pan. Bake for 10 minutes at 350, then pull them out and crack an egg in each. Put them back in for another 10, sprinkle with pepper and serve. SO good! You can do this with ham, Canadian bacon, or turkey.

I had made the kids breakfast and there were some bacon baskets left. I should have just ate one or two, but I ate the last three. Ugh, my stomach felt so full it nearly hurt! Lesson learned. It put a crunch on my reward meal also, I had to be creative in how to have a very low sodium meal! It wasn't as bad as I had thought, I only went over little more than 400 grams, so it's nothing that can't be undone. I just need to pre-plan and make better choices.

Waking up with a smaller number, just rocks!!! Nothing yesterday, double today! I also have less than 16 pounds before my first goal is achieved and I will weigh what I did when I met my hubby! There's only 26 pounds left until I attempt to quit smoking, 6 pounds to go before revealing this blog to my friends, and my ultimate goal is still very possibly in sight to be half of me by June 12th, 2014!


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Complimentary Meal
2 Bacon Baskets

Complimentary Meal
3 Bacon Baskets

Reward Meal
1 can no salt green beans
2 yeast rolls with unsalted butter
1 piece Pumpkin Spice cake with cream cheese icing

***Please don't refer to these meal as a typical meal. I feel I need to be honest about what I've consumed, but this is not a good example of how we should eat! Being healthy is the most important way to lose weight! Please go to my other meals, they give a better picture.****

Fatty On The Court

Weight: 307                            Total:-16 lbs

I've lost so much in the past week, I should not mind that my weight held the same. Guess I'm a
little over ambitious? I know that other things are going on, and that muscle weighs more than fat.
I have the exercised soreness all over my body from 2 days on the basketball court shooting hoops.

I am just shooting hoops a little above "leisure", and kicking the soccer ball around to and from
the park. I could not believe the workout this is giving me, so I looked it up. The benefits of
basketball are ridiculous. As long as I keep challenging myself out there, I get a near total workout!

                                                 (Jude wants a basket so bad!)

I also used the swings to do a little lifting. I would lean all the way back and pull my self up with my arms and tummy. I did about 3 reps of five doing this, and I can feel it in my biceps. Remember, I have to stay low impact, not to damage my back more than it is. I refuse to sit here and become a mushy lump of skin though!

Yesterday I began reading this thread by successful losers and what they have experienced since they have achieved their goal weight. It was so intriguing that I couldn't stop reading until the end of the post, and it was LONG!

I would read a couple pages get up and do something, come back and read a few more. It was almost an all day process. Usually, I just skim the threads, looking for success pics, I don't actually read them.
What I concluded is I am about to experience a whole different life.

There is a mountain of things that I am going to have to get used to, and not everything is going to be "hunky dory." Here's some of the pro's and con's I read from people that have lost 50-300 pounds:

Pro's
*Summer heat is not just bearable, it's enjoyable
*Shoe size gets smaller
*increased libido and sex is better
*(for men) about every 30 lbs lost you gain 1/2 inch to your joystick
*increased attention from the opposite sex (one guy even said his wife treats him better)
*people are nicer to you, talk to you more, you become visible
*you become an inspiration to friends and family
*you like having your picture taken again
*shopping becomes fun, for most
*sleep better
*more energy
*less ailments (getting off medication, CPAP, inhalers, etc.)
*cat calls (everyone seems to enjoy them)
*more comfortable in movie, airplane seats
*new found confidence
*losing weight spills into other parts of life, like cleanliness, organization, and other self
  improvement areas

Con's
*cold all the time from fall to spring
*extra saggy skin
*increased unwanted attention from creeps
*you realize just how invisible you were, and how much people judged you
*too often you lose your heavier friends or friends that don't exercise
*you get comments like "you're small enough, you don't eat enough, are you sick?"  
*some find it hard to find clothes that fit them correctly, and they lose their old sense of style
*an overwhelming sense of powerlessness and not being able to protect yourself
*people tend to feel like others are invading their personal space, part of the phantom fat syndrome  
*lost cushion in the rump tends to make finding a comfortable sitting position harder

Every single one said they would easily take the good with the bad. Also, that over all, their life was
so much more fulfilling. They even remark about how people constantly ask them "How did you do
it?" Some of their replies had become sarcastic, because no one wants to hear, "eating healthy and lots of exercise!"  Stating that their eyes tend to glaze over, they just tune out, or change the subject!

I can totally relate. I remember saying "Bloody Hell, I can't get off the couch much less do 5 minutes of aerobics!" I was miserable up until about a month ago. It wasn't just a move your ass thing. I literally felt glued to the sofa. I was fatigue all the time, and there seemed no end in sight.

Then the wonderful book arrived, explaining to me why I felt this way.  I wasn't just lazy with no will power, there was a metabolic and biological reason. I saw hope like a ray of light, and I have to say that I feel totally different already.

By finding this way of eating, and recognizing the problem I was able to release a lot of guilt I had placed upon myself for not being able to follow a caloric diet, and achieve something I so dearly wanted. I felt like a real loser.

Last night I even got straight up from the table and washed the dishes. I can't remember the last time I did that. It was just another victory moment. Am I where I want to be? Oh heck no! I am on the path I want to be on though. I will get there eventually.

My father-in-law says I am a completely different person from when he left and came back (about 3 weeks time). When he left the first time I was just beginning. He noticed that I had more energy, but probably figured I would go off the diet, or it was just a good couple of days.

When he returned he saw more than just that little improvement, and kept remarking about how I seemed more awake and more attentive. That the weight loss was indeed visible. He'll be back in 3
weeks and I can't wait. I love getting compliments from someone who has a handful of degrees and doctorates! Vain? Maybe, just a little.

My daughter, China said that she's even been talking about me in school and when out with friends. She's so happy to see the difference. Every morning being up to talk to her before she goes to school, seeing me stick to something, and knowing the numbers are going down has given her some sense of pride in me.

Oh how I would have loved to see that number go down again today. I need to change my focus. I think it is changing, it just may take a while. Maybe when I start seeing the pants sizes go down, it'll make relying on the scale much less important.

HUGGZZ to you all. Have a wonderful day!
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Complimentary Meal
2 cups sauteed cabbage and ground beef- sesame oil
1 stalk celery with cream cheese

Reward Meal
Spinach salad with cukes, tomato, beets, fried onions-ranch
1 1/2 cups spaghetti sauce with ground beef and parmesian, no noodles
2 yeast rolls with butter
1 cup 1% milk

about 5 liters of water and 3 cups coffee




       

Velocity Plus What?!

Weight: 307 lbs              Total: -16  lbs

My fingers are a little swollen today. I know I went a bit over my sodium again, but just a little this time. It was them damn Jimmy Dean maple sausages I had for lunch, but they are so GOOD! Next time I'll just have one instead of the serving size of 3.

My main goal when eating now is to take it slow. I'm usually fine during my complimentary meals, but during my reward meals I know I am on a time limit. Even though 60 minutes is plenty of time to eat, I find myself scarfing the food down almost panicked.  

It takes about seven minutes for your body to send out the first shot of insulin. It's about that time that I start feeling full. If I slow down and enjoy my food, I am sure to eat less in the long run. Plus, I find myself obscenely burping all the time. 

I've been a fast eater for a long time, barely chewing or tasting my food. My father was in the Navy when I was growing up. I only lived with him for about six months out of my whole life. When I returned to my mother she noticed that I had started shoveling my food in, not something I had ever done before. Think it probably had something to do with him threatening to leave me at restaurants, and making me leave most of my food on my plate because he was done so now everyone was done? Probably.

Yesterday, I took a short walk with Jude to the park and we took the basketball and the soccer ball. I kicked the soccer ball around all the way there the shot some hoops for about 10 minutes. On the way home I kicked the ball also. Almost to the house, I went to catch the ball, miscalculated and 
bailed right into the grass onto my hands and knee. 

The rest of the day, I was in a good amount of pain. I was so irritated, probably more at myself for being out of shape and uncoordinated, but I seriously felt like I couldn't do anything anymore without getting hurt. What's the velocity of 307 pounds traveling at about 45 miles an hour towards the 
ground? What is the impact rate? 

My knee feels a lot better today, whatever it is. Hopefully it will not stop me from being productive! I want to have all my ducks in order, so we can go to the park this evening after school. The kids have finally resigned themselves that we are sticking to our stricter video game rules and outdoor play is a must before achieving free time. There is a lot less resistance to do other things now, like the park.

My hubby and I are doing a timeline picture project. At the end of my weighing week (Wednesday's)
we are taking a picture of me, so at the end we'll have a full progress blog! I think it is a cool idea. One that will keep me motivated, and remind me how long it took to get back to where I should have been all these years.

Inevitably, there is going to be some hard work getting this mess into shape! My mind is ready for it, but seeing as my body can't or won't comply with certain orders I give it, it might take a while. I need to stick with the Pilates and stretching and just some extra activity! It's hard, because I find it so boring! I want to be out there giving it my all! I have never been able to run, and because of my back, I may never be able to run. I want to run!

I want to feel that euphoric high that every runner talks about. I remember the feeling quite well from doing cool new tricks on my skateboard, or taking my bike through a trail of hills perfect for BMX style biking. I will probably never get back on to a skateboard. If I do, it'll probably have to be a long board. Probably won't ever have the capacity to jump with a dirt bike ever again either. This girl needs a new passion.

I am sorry for being a little slack about logging my food here at night. I'm finding it harder and harder everyday, seeing as I'm less and less on the computer. I've all but given up with my games on Facebook, they just can't hold my attention anymore. 

Since my evenings are busier, I think it would be best that everyday I post the previous day's consumption. 

Hope you have an awesome day people. Thanks for stopping by and all your +1's! It makes me feel like there is someone out there cheering me on!


(Apologies for the way my paragraphs look so cut up sometimes. Truthfully, I don't write like that! I have tried several different ways to correct it, even following a smaller margin, nothing seems to help!)

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal

1 fried egg with cheddar

1 stalk of celery with cream cheese

1 1/2 cups of sauteed cabbage

3 Jimmy Dean Maple sausage links

Reward meal

Spinach salad with cukes, tomato, black olives, fried onions, beets, croutons, cheddar-ranch

1 1/2 cups spaghetti with multigrain pasta

1 piece garlic bread

1 nice sized piece of my Pumpkin Spice cake with cream cheese icing

(throughout the day I drank about 1 1/2 gallons of water and 3 cups black coffee)

I'm Such A Loser, And I Love It!

Weight : 307.2                  Total: -15.8               Average for the week: -4.1

Wow! What a great finish to a week! I am beside myself. I don't know what to think. I am on a roll and I don't want to stop. My stats for the month are unbelievable! In 4 weeks I have lost 15.8 pounds, and I ate cake!

I was a little concerned about my nutrients, so I went to myfitnesspal, where I have been logging all my food. There was very little deficiency at all, and I know that the little I'm not getting, my multivitamin will cover.

I love that I feel in control of my choices, and that there is not some biological need or desire for the
wrong ones. Last night while my kids were hitting fresh pizza, I was savoring every bite of my
sauteed cabbage in sesame oil. I could have had a piece if I wanted, but even though in my mind I thought oh, yummy, cheesy, hot pizza...my body said not interested!

People, there is a difference in what you're mind tells you and what your body tells you. When you're mind is telling you something you have a choice. When your body tells you something, you still have a choice but it's harder to make the right one. If you neglect to satisfy it you find yourself feeling deprived (sometimes for days after).

I do not feel deprived, AT ALL! I made this incredible cake yesterday. The best I've ever made! I still had a piece after dinner. It was AMAZING! Bobby told his father that he only wanted a small piece and I told him that it tastes better than it looks...he asked for another piece!!

I wish I was a bit more artistic, even icing a cake is difficult for me! It definitely did taste better than it looked!

The Next Endeavor
My father-in-law and I set a goal weight for me to quit smoking (280 lbs). I'm very nervous about it, but hopefully I am a lot more mobile by then, and can walk off any nervous energy. If the weight keeps dropping like this I will be quitting before Christmas!

Speaking of Christmas, it's rolling up fast and I still haven't heard from Walmart. I really hope they didn't try to call while my phone was cut off! The lady said one to two weeks. Yesterday was a week.
They probably didn't, but the thought is still nagging me.

Well folks, I gotta git! Only 15 minutes before I start waking the masses for school, and I need to try and proof read before posting!

May the wind be at your back, and the sun shine on your face!

                                      (my one-a-day for 9/25/13: Fall is coming!!)

HUGGZZ

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Drop It Like It's Hot!

Weight: 308.4                 Total: -14.6 lbs (less than 4 weeks)

Today's goal: Stay away from sodium!!!

My 3 year old must have thought I was crazy yesterday. Sometime in the mid-afternoon, I realized
that my rings were super loose again. Then when I finally put my jeans on to run to the store, they
felt especially loose also.

About an hour later, I was digging through the winter clothes in my closet, to get to my 22's. Clothes were flying everywhere! Unfortunately, I'm not there yet, and I was a little bummed. Now, waking up to that change on the scale, it can only be called magnificent! In just a few short weeks those 22's will fit me like they were made for me.

As of yet, my blog is pretty much a secret, to everyone I know. Most of my friends are on Facebook.
I do mean friends also. I know most of the people personally, except for a few that I have for gaming purposes. I am trying to keep this little secret until I hit the 200's which is only eight more pounds away!

There is a reason that I have done it this way. I wanted to make sure it worked, before totally falling in front the nay-sayers. I used to blog some years ago and all my friends were very supportive. I started endorsing products, and was very careful, to only endorse quality regardless of the money. I still feel the same way. Only I am getting paid by pounds this time! This is my own endeavor, and personally
I feel there is a lot more to lose!

I know that my compadres will be happy that I am blogging again. I'm just keeping it as a bit of an unveiling.

I am feeling so much better today. Shortly after waking up yesterday, my head started hurting and felt if I had just finished a rocky boat ride. My stomach felt so swampy. So far today, that's gone, and just a bit of a runny nose has greeted me. Hopefully, that's all it'll do and I can have a full productive day.

I hope your day is as awesome as mine has started!

HUGGZZ
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