An Empty Nest

Yesterday did not go as planned. I didn't realize that there was next to nothing

for me to stay low carb defrosted. I made a breakfast casserole for Christmas,

so I didn't even have an egg or slice of bacon. Since all the kids are gone (except

for Jude) until Monday, I didn't think of pulling anything down either!

Today I have a ham steak and broccoli, but I'm going to have to be creative

until the first, when I can go grocery shopping. I think I have a bag of chicken 

quarters I can thaw, bake, and have ready. That's probably what I'll do.

Last night, we rented a movie that I have been waiting to see. "Prisoners"

proved to be a worth the watch movie. It had a ton of twists and even though

I dosed off a bit, no matter my effort to stay awake...it was action packed.

Here's a  link to the trailer. Prisoners Trailer 2013

I love spending time alone with Hubby. During the chaos of raising seven 

completely different people, sometimes it is hard to see why we are together.

Sometimes. But when we are alone, it is so easy to fall so deeply in love again.

Last night we spent quite a while playing guitar, working out chords and singing

together. I alone spent about 2 hours playing before he came home from work.

Once you start it is hard to stop. In fact I can't wait to get to it today.

I also had a short talk with him about being a G'dly wife, and what I felt like

the H'ly Spirit has been impressing on me about staying at home. He didn't

seem overly against it. I know that money always stresses him out, and rightly 

so. But I think he agreed that G'd is taking me on a path that even I didn't 

expect or desire.

Sunday I have plans with my best friend to meet her at her church and spend 

the day with her. I can't wait. She is always the person that when you leave you

feel like a better person. 

Well, my house is almost back in order from the catastrophe that it was yesterday.

Still lots of recon to do, scrubbing the bathrooms and such, but it's mostly back 

together. I will bid you an awesome day and get on with life.

Twas The Day After Christmas...

...and my house is a wreck! The house is too full to weigh naked in the kitchen
so I have no idea where I am at right now, shouldn't be too bad though. I was
very moderate yesterday.

I think I am ready to kick this fat busting into overdrive. I have 4 days until our
New Years get together and am contemplating complete low carb until then. As
for New Years resolutions, here are mine:

Daily devotions. I haven't been as faithful as He has, but I have been better. I
would like to make it a habit to get up every morning and do this. I want G'd to
have the best of me.

Get the rest of this weight off. I don't know what I did, but the last few days my
back has been screaming. I haven't felt this pain for about 2 months. After I lost
the first 20 lbs it disappeared, but now it has reared it's ugly head again. I think I
will have more low carb days and less reward meals in this coming year, also
making more of an effort to exchange my bad carbs with good ones!

Quit smoking forever. I don't like the ashtray, or the ashtray mouth. I feel dirty
smoking. Not that I'm going to Hell for doing it, it's just a nasty habit.

Learn an instrument. I spent about 2 hours last night playing on our new guitar. I
played in orchestra when I was in school. Mostly the piano, cello, and bass. I
have always wanted to play the guitar, so on the eve of turning 40, have decided to
devote at least an hour a day. As of last night I have a long way to go. I have
forgotten so much and my fingertips feel bruised!

Be more active. An hour a day besides my normal activities like cleaning the house
and grocery shopping. I don't care if it's just walking, or Pilates. Eventually I would
like to be able to hoop, that just looks like fun!

Be the best mother and wife that I can be. It's not just a job it's a passion. Time
passes so quickly, and I would like to be the best I can be now. This includes initiative,
compassion, being slow to speak and quick to listen.

Be more organized. I think that if I can find a way of scheduling my life better I can
conquer all of the above. In whole just getting the things done that I need to in the day
with 7 kids going in every direction, is rough. I'm lucky if I plan 5 things and get 2 1/2
done.

I hope your Christmas was bright and cheerful, surrounded by people you love!
Have an awesome day after!

HUGGZZ

Under The Tree

Good morning. I was 288.1 this morning, which is about 2 lbs up from yesterday.
I'm figuring that it was because of the food at Longhorn steak house. The food was
good but I kept remarking that it tasted salty. Rob even agreed on some of the
items, so it's probably water retention.

Yesterday was filled with a to do list that was other than mine, so today is all about
my to do list which only leaves me maybe 12 hours to complete it (and it is extensive).

Well, I was able to find a used violin for my oldest daughter, that was in pretty good
shape. So I guess I'll be spending some time on Youtube trying to string it for her, it has
been over 20 years since I have put strings on an instrument, hopefully it all comes back
to me.

It is official I have a great Christmas present from hubby. He has been out for the past
2 days searching high and low for the camera I want. He wanted to make sure I had it
under the tree. We ended up getting it from Amazon.com and I am much happier,
because not only was it a great price, but I got a bundle deal with all the attachments!

My dream camera is the Cannon Rebel EOS, but I know we don't have the dough for
a beast like that so, I settled for the Sony H200 Cybershot. I believe it will be incredibly
sufficient for my needs. It won't get here until January, but the best gift of all was the effort
my hubby made to make it happen. No one has ever tried so hard to do something like
that for me.

The Good, The Okay's, And The Stay-AWAY's
If you are local to Virginia Beach, or are here and need automotive repair, my favorite
place is Sea Attack Auto Repair. These are good old boys where the employees are
treated like family, and you are never treated like a stranger. They will go over and
beyond to provide you great service and the very best price available.

Sitting in the waiting room you don't even feel like you are at the car shop, it's more like
the local barbershop, with great conversation and plenty of laughs. I have been a loyal
customer for over a year, since I found them on accident looking for a used tire. What's
more instead of trying to get over on me because I'm a woman and they think I don't
know anything, they try to give me a better deal on anything I need and treat me with
respect! Love, Love, Love this place!

Well, that is all for today! I hope your day is awesome. I probably won't be writing
tomorrow but will definitely check in on Thursday!

Merry Christmas to all! May it be safe and remarkably joyful as we celebrate the
birth of our L'rd J'sus Chr'st!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Hot wings with ranch
Antipasto salad with ranch fried onions and sunflower seeds

Reward Meal
(Longhorn Steak House)
Brussel sprouts au grautin
Sirloin
Stuffed Mushrooms
Parmesean encrusted asparagus
Mixed greens salad with tomato, cukes, onions, croutons- balsamic vinagerette
Grilled shrimp
Stone-ground bread and butter
(there was a lot of take home, but I had a little of everything)

Christmas Countdown

Dear Me,
Please wake up. The count down is on, the deadline to get all this stuff done is
drawing nigh! Thanks, Me

Ugh! I have been feeling so fatigue the last few days! It has to be the stress of
all the things on  my to do list. If I could just wake up it would be a breeze!

I weighed in at 286.4 lbs again this morning. Stall, stall, stall! Yesterday I went
all day with out eating until my reward meal. It wasn't intentional, just time got the
better of me.

I gotta get off of here and bust a move! Have an awesome day!

HUGGZZ
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Reward Meal
(Taco Bell)
steak grilled stuffed burrito
nachos bell grande
hard taco
cake
(I shared my food, so I only ate about half of the burrito and nachos)

A Gem, In Fact A Ruby!

Still busy as a bee today. I received a call for a return side job today, and I love it!
It's nice to be asked back! It also causes a little lap in time where I am not getting
anything accomplished and the count down is on!!

I weighed in this morning at 286.4, so I can only imagine what it was earlier this
week. Feeling so much more alive though and that is so much more important than
a number!

The Good, The Okay's, and The Stay Away's

Hubby and I went to one of our favorite date spots yesterday for dinner so we could
plan out our shopping route for the night. I had a blast shopping with him!

I do have to give a shout out to Ruby Tuesday's at Lynnhaven Mall though! Let me
start by saying, I do not like complaining at a restaurant. I have a person in my life
that wherever we go she complains, and it is down right embarrassing!

Usually we go to Ruby's for the pretzel burgers and salad bar, last night we had a
coupon so decided to try something new. We both ordered the ribs, Robert had a
full rack and I had a half with Louisiana style fried shrimp. There is no need to knit
pick, but we were not happy with it (except for the shrimp and salad bar, they were
down right great).

We barely had to say anything and the manager Tom McVey was there taking our
plates and offering us to order something else. Also a free desert for the inconvenience.
We were more than impressed with the customer service here and I am so very happy
to give them a thumbs up. Their bathrooms always smell good and are kept tidy, their
wait staff is knowledgeable and personable.

So, if you are out and you'd like a quick bite this location is a great place to go unlike
their neighbor (Uno's Chicago Grill if you missed a prior post..that is a definite
stay-away)!

Ruby Tuesday's
1009 Lynnhaven Mall Loop
Virginia Beach, Va 23452

Thank you Tom, we'll be back on Tuesday!

Have an awesome day people, and remember when you are shopping that the real
reason for the season. Time is more precious than gifts!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Sonics breakfast toaster without toast

Reward Meal
(Ruby's)
Spinach salad with peas, cukes, tomato, black olives, green pepper, onions,
    sunflower seeds, the best croutons ever- ranch
Fried shrimp
Onion rings
Cheddar biscuits
New York cheesecake with cranberry sauce (yum yum)
Iced tea (sweet)

Busy, Busy Bee

Lots to do today before Bobby and Trinity go to their mother's today. They won't
be back until Christmas eve, and I want to make sure they get to help make presents
for her.

I have a huge list of things to complete before the 24th, I know I am not alone, but it
sure feels like it! Here's a list of things that I am doing, so if you're looking for something
extra to fill that gift list:

Peanut Butter Blossoms (to make them blossoms put a Hersey kiss on top before baking)
Sugar Cookie Cutouts
Candy Cane Hearts
Fudge
Painted Vases
Pictures of the kids in frames
Candy Cane Wreathes

Had a normal CAD day yesterday, so happy with my way of eating. I hope you all
have a happy productive day!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
3 Hard boiled eggs

Complimentary Meal
mozzarella and summer sausage

Reward Meal
Swedish meatballs with egg noodles
Hawaiian rolls with butter
Cookies

Letting Myself Down

I am determined today that cramps and this sudden cold are not going to stop
me. It has definitely slowed me though. I wanted to have goodies for all the
kid's teachers ready today, but by yesterday afternoon I was laid out on the
couch with a killer headache.

My face, teeth, and neck hurt so bad I couldn't keep going. I am so totally
disappointed. I got up and started the baking around 8 pm, but by 11 I had
to pack it up and surrender to defeat.

All is not lost, we have plenty of more friends and family to bake for. I guess
it was not meant to be, because in all my earnest effort it was not happening.

Yesterday's "table time" with the kids was a definite surprise. They ALL showed
up!! Yes, they ALL wanted to take part in studying the bible! So, we have changed
it up a bit and I am going to do themes every week with memory verses and
prizes.

Today we were only missing one, but that's okay we were up a bit later trying to
get the baking done. We are doing The Fruit of The Spirit the rest of this week,
because it was a pretty easy theme to get started and I need to get on to lesson
planning for next week.

I had a great CAD day also, except for taking some cold syrup not thinking about
the carbohydrates in it. I plan on starting my weigh week on Sunday, so we'll see
how the numbers are doing then. As far as feeling better, in spite of my afflictions
at the moment I still feel better...I think that is the most important part!

I hope you all have an awesome day!!
HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Carolina BBQ with homemade coleslaw
Hot wings with ranch

Reward Meal
Fried Chicken
Potato Salad
Hawaiian Rolls with butter
piece of cake
iced tea

A Bargain

Good morning! I had a wonderful CAD day yesterday, and I feel so much better this
morning. I was up at a little past 5 am, make up on, devotions done, to do list almost
complete, and about to make breakfast for all the kiddos that want to join me for study
at the table this morning!

Today I may have a new one. I didn't want to do it, but I made a bargain with my
oldest son. He has been on restriction from video games because he turned a report in
4 weeks late. He is a straight A student and there was no other reason for this except
bad priorities.

I have a love hate relationship with our game systems. I love to play them myself, but it
is a time thief. It takes away valuable time that we otherwise would have. I am so
guilty of letting something go so I can get extra time to complete a mission.

In light of James being such a good student, I want to instill on him the importance of
prioritizing his life. He very well may be looking at an advanced diploma and a full ride
to a good university. I don't want video games getting in the way of that. So, I told him
I would give him an hour of play for every day he studies with us, and an hour for any
time he goes to church.

I didn't weigh myself again this morning. Actually since I have girl things going on, and I
know that's about a 5 lb jump (plus not being very good lately), it very well be something
I don't want to see at all! I'll weigh myself in a few days and will report to you the verdict.
Otherwise it is back to the basics.

His faitfulness
I am doing a devotion series called Becoming A G'dly Woman, and I am also reading
in Romans a chapter everyday. I am finding both very informative and enlightening.

I hope you have an awesome day, with the sun on your face and the wind at your back!
HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Tuna with Kosher dill chunks and mayo

Reward Meal
(I was a pig pig)
Iced Tea
Chicken Roulade with Cream Sherry Sauce
Green beans
Brown and serve rolls

A Bitter Taste

Weight: (?)

Both Hubby and I have gotten a bitter taste of what I am like with out my
way of eating. Since Thanksgiving I have been off and on, it's catching up
to me.

For the past few days I can't wake up on time, I drag butt at whatever I do,
I don't quite wake up, and I feel like overall crap! We had a short talk this
morning about being supportive, because I'm sure he doesn't like getting up
early to get the kids off to school whether he has to work or not.

I was pretty productive yesterday, but it was a push because of my
commitment to be a G'dly wife and mother. My energy is at -10 today,
and I am recommitting myself to be a better me, and a better role model
for those like me.

I am so sorry. I feel like I have failed most of you, but I am human. Please
pray for me...I'm not going anywhere!

Last night Hubby and I went to our first party together. It was fun, and I did
feel a little more confident in my appearance with the weight I have lost, but I
still felt fat. It was probably because I still am fat!

It was nice though, and Hubby got a huge Christmas bonus, which just tells
me that I am right about what I have been feeling G'd has been telling me.
If I stop worrying about going out to work, but instead concern myself with
being a G'dly woman, he will take care of the rest.

I feel better now that I have written. I almost skipped today. I'm glad I didn't.
Thank you for following me. Thank you for your support, +1's, shares, and
comments! Have an awesome day!

HUGGZZ

Hooray For Family Holidays?

Weight: 287.6 (Yesterday's weight)

I didn't get a chance to weight this morning, and I went off again yesterday, due to
feeling bad. I pretty much sipped on Sprite all day to try and calm my stomach, and
ate noodles and such, because everything else seemed nasty. I didn't have any fresh
fruit, or I would have chosen that instead.

I found out last night that my father and mother may be under the same roof for the
first time in 30 years Christmas day. Worry, worry, worry! Oh L'rd this could be a
full out fiasco! My father has a temper and a low tolerance for stupidity, not giving him
any credit cause he's pretty stupid himself. My mother is just BSC (bat shit crazy). I
mean full out, hard to handle, bundle of wacky!

She didn't use to be so bad, and the only thing I can think of is the drugs. My mother
has been addicted to pain killers since I was young, but it was never a "problem"
because it was prescribed.

His Faithfulness
Lately I feel like G'd is laying it on my heart to be more concerned about being a
G'dly wife and mother, than working. I am struggling with this because I have not
been a traditional homemaker for many years. I find a sense of accomplishment
going out and bringing home money instead of the endless chores that come with
the other.

I'm not totally sure that Hubby would be totally on board with that either. There are
a lot of mouths to feed here and kids to be clothed, but in the same moment that I say
that I feel like He will take care of the extra.

I do know this, when we surrender to His will and not our desires he rewards us.
Surrender yourself to the Lord, and wait patiently for him. Psalm 37:7 (GWT)

I have a side job today sitting with an elderly woman, so off I go! Have an awesome
day people!

HUGGZZ

Pinterest To The Rescue!

Weight: 286.2          

Yesterday must have been a fluke of sorts, because I drop those extra 3 lbs
overnight. I wish I could say I did something special, but I just stayed on plan.

Dinner was at 7 eleven! Yes, convenience store food, but I was hungry and it
would have been another 2 hours before I could eat at home. I could have been
smarter and had a pre-made salad, but I chose a Hot Pocket and a Chimichanga,
with chips and cookies.

It's a good illustration though about this way of eating. I ate whatever I wanted, and
still was good. I had been planning to have dinner with my uncle, but by the time I
fought the tunnel traffic to get there, I just wanted to go home. So, I dropped the kids
off with him and their father, and came straight back.

I had a lot of fun with Jude yesterday. I've been trying to have more learning
experiences with him, because his behavior is just off the hook. It's too cold
to go for walks with him anymore, and I know he loves the play area at the
mall, but I'm a little sketchy with all that he can pick up there.

                                                    (the play area at Lynnhaven Mall)

Last week we had a stomach bug going through the house. In total it took two
weeks, and about 10 nasty loads of laundry, to run it's course through our house.
That is typical for this size of a family...and the flu is even worse. Head lice is
a nightmare! Taking him to hang out with strange kids is like asking for more
chores and sick kids.

Of course the Pinterest junkie I have become, I pinned some activities for his age,
and he loved playing cars with me. Thank G'd somebody in this world has ingenuity!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and a completely awesome day!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Double cheese burger- no bun
Collards

Reward Meal
Chimicanga
Hot Pocket
Chips
cookies
chocolate milk

The Question

Weight:: 289.1

How can it be that it takes me 1 month to lose 2 pounds, but only 2 days to
gain 4? That is the math, science, and luck question of the day. Buggars!

Last night was wonderful, except for the part of my friend's kids bringing
their goth, Marilyn Manson loving, psychopath friend to dinner with them.
This is probably as close as you will ever read about me talking about other
people badly.

I won't mention names, but the child (16 years) was so rude, I had them take
her home before we ate. All the a fore mentioned adjectives, though they are
true, were merely there to describe the child.

It's not the way she looked or dressed or believed. It was the manner in which
she treated me in my home. It was definitely a moment in which I will not soon
forget.

Wow, that's all I have to say about that!

SO here's to pulling my bootstraps up today, getting back up on that horse after
two days off.

Have an awesome day!

HUGGZZ

Friendship

Weight: 286.4                        

I'm up a pound. I have no problem making it go up! Go off a little and it complies,
stay true and the scale doesn't know what to do!

Yesterday China and Jericho had a Christmas party to go to at church. So we made
4 dozen Peanut Butter Blossoms and about 10 lbs of Crazy Kielbasa Casserole. Lets
just say they are my favorite cookie... and that is all that needs to be said!

I think if I had waited to have my RM for dinner, it wouldn't have happened.  Today I
go back to dinner rewards paired with a gallon of water throughout the day!

I think I am becoming a Pintrest recycling/upcycling junkie...not sure where this is going,
but hopefully good places!

Tonight my best friend in the world comes to dinner! Yea! Kristi lives about 2 hours
away so our visits are very rare anymore. With her having four children and me having
seven so are phone calls sometimes.

Let me tell you about Kristi. She is my hero! Not for any spectacular reason, just
because she is who she is. The woman is a big bag of genuine, talented, intuitive,
J'sus lovin', dedicated wonderment. (and just if you're wondering...I don't think she
reads my blog).

When we first met we would hang out everyday until someone would get mad at the
other, then we wouldn't see each other for 6 months. I think it may have happened
twice. After that we made an agreement.

I had told her that I didn't need sunny day friends. I needed a friend that was constant
in my life. That I wasn't interested in any other kind of friend. We are human, therefore
fallible. That being said we were bound to let the other one down. So we built a friendship
on biblical principals. We have been constant friend since, for a total of maybe 15 years.

There ARE rules to friendships! They might not all be what you think they might be.
A G'dly friendship is like a G'dly marriage. Here are some, but probably not all.

1. Realize that no one is perfect, therefore we will fail each other sometimes.
2. It's okay to retreat to a corner and lick your wounds, just not for an indefinite
    amount of time. (I say no more than a week, or else you miss too much in their life.)
3. Always lift each other up and be encouraging.
4. (This is a biggie) Do not loan anything, that you can not give. Materialistic things are
    a quick and easy way to end a friendship. So, if you can not live without that blouse,
    don't lend it. If you do, prepare yourself for it not to come back. Do not be a lender
    or borrower at any cost.
5. Don't harbor any grudges, or don't go to bed angry. If there is a problem say it! Say
    it right away. Articulate your feelings. Listen to their side then retreat to consider both
    sides. Don't be nasty, belittling, or disrespectful. Say your peace then let them say
    theirs, then then change the subject.
6. Resolve that you will always treat the other in love, even if you don't love them at that
    moment.
7.  (Another biggie) Lashon HaRa or evil tongue. Do not bad mouth or gossip ever about
      your friend to anyone! It's a great practice for life and relationships in general, but
      especially with loved ones. Remember people are jealous of good relationships and
      want to cause rifts, so if you hear that your friend has gossiped about you ask them,
      don't "confront" them. Their words may have been misconstrued for ulterior motives.
8. Give more than you receive. Don't make it a contest, but just do it! It can be quite an
    effort because if you give you'll receive so much more!
9. Real friendship is work, and anything worth having is worked for.
10. Say sorry, even if you don't feel like you were the one in the wrong. Pride cometh
     before a fall, so don't cheapen your friendship by being prideful.

In closing, I hope that you have an awesome day! Thanks for checking in on me!

HUGGZZ

Crafting Does The Heart Good

Weight: 285.2                        Total:  -37.8

Good grief, Charlie Brown! Here I am again and haven't budged at all!
What's it going to take to start seeing those numbers go down again?!

This is going to be quick today, I was up late making Christmas wreaths
and slept in.

                                              (my beautiful Belle holding the wreath)

The picture of the second wreath doesn't do it justice at all. I am so happy with them,
that I have to make more! They are fairly easy and you can find the instructions at:

Candy Cane Wreaths

Toilet Paper Roll Wreaths
It is easier to paint these ^ with an airbrush, if you can.

Have an awesome day!
HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Scrambled eggs with bacon pieces and cheese
Green beans

Reward Meal
Spaghetti with whole wheat noodles
garlic bread
spinach salad with cukes, tomato, beets, fried onions, sunflower seeds-
      balsamic dressing
strawberry yogurt

Complimentary Meal
Baked chicken
Green beans

Solutions On The Horizon

Weight: 285.2                              Total: -37.8

Good morning! Here I am again, sitting at the same ungodly weight! BAH! It's
one of those days that I have to count my blessings. My blood sugar is stable, I
am mobile once again, and most to all pain is gone, on top of losing thus far.

I did some research this morning already, the Hellers put out more than the CAD/
CALP books, and after I'm done here I think I'm going to check them out. It may
be enlightening as to why I am stuck.

Yesterday, went pretty well, considering I thought the prospective employer
might be a serial killer! (HA HA HA) He was actually very nice, and I hope he
considers hiring me. Anonymity will always be a must with this job, and I'll have
to be extra careful. I know the price of confidentiality, it is hard to come by
with so many "tongue waggers."

My first night of training with Paramount Builders went okay. There is a lot of
information that I feel is quite boring, and don't really care to know about. Like
knowing EVERYTHING about roofing, siding, gutters, and windows! It is
profitable gain knowing this crap, but it still doesn't interest me in the slightest.

After all, I am not selling their product, I am only resetting appointments. I guess
I should be thankful, that they are a reputable company, with a great product and
track history. It also will maintain me, especially if I go back to school.

His Faithfulness

Today China and I had time alone before she left for school. We are still going
over the 38 things that happen when we are saved.  I think we so often forget
that we are to walk like J'sus, and treat others how he would treat them, especially
but not limited to, those closest to us.

We are never going to be perfect, and there is nothing we can do to insure salvation.
But I think it is the willingness to try that counts. When someone confides in you,
understand and let it go. Forget that they even told you, because you will be judged
and treated in the same measure when it comes to G'd.

It is never your job to judge someone or condemn them. That is G'd's job, your job
is to love unconditionally, and to walk the walk.

Here's to another day with solutions on the horizon, and holding my head up until
I get there. Have an awesome day.


HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
2 Hard boiled eggs
Kielbasa link with mustard

Reward Meal
Spaghetti with whole wheat noodles
spinach salad with cukes, tomatoes, shredded cheese, fried onions, sunflower
     seeds-ranch
garlic bread
small iced cinnamon honey bun

Complimentary Snack
piece of provolone cheese (to ward off heartburn)

3 cups coffee, 2 liters water

Sister Of Quandary

Weight: 285.2                           Total: 37.8

I really hope I'm not going to sit at this weight for so long! I kind of did an experiment
yesterday, and only ate at my reward meal. I still neither gained or loss. So, forget that
honey!

It probably wouldn't have been too bad if I had not gone grocery shopping before it
also! By the time I got home and was preparing dinner, I felt anxious and desperate.
So, today I am going to make a huge quiche to have for the next few days.

Crustless Quiche
1 doz large eggs
8 oz softened cream cheese
1.5 lbs sausage
2 10 oz pks chopped spinach
10 oz sliced mushrooms
1 cup shredded cheese
Chopped green onions (scallions) to taste

Brown and crumble the sausage and set aside to cool. Sauté the mushrooms in the sausage drippings, set aside to cool. Thaw spinach if frozen, squeeze out excess liquid. Shred cheese. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. In large mixing bowl, mix softened cream cheese and eggs until well blended and the lumps are nearly gone. Add chopped green onion and spinach; mix thoroughly. Add shredded cheese and mix thoroughly. Add the browned, cooled sausage and mix it in evenly. Pour into greased 13x9 baking pan, bake for 50 minutes.

Recipe can be cut in half to fit in a deep 9” pie pan or square pan. Bake for 40 minutes.

(I am not sure who to give accreditation for this recipe, but it was on a post in a CAD support group)

Also, because of starting work tonight, I am going to eat my RM earlier so I won't be
eating too late when I get home. Which leads me to the newest quandary. I have an
interview for a personal assistant job today at 3:00 across town.

I also have two little girls getting off the bus about that time, and have to be at my new
job at 4:30. I didn't think it was going to be a problem, but now I'm starting to wonder.
The biggest issue, is this guy found my ad off of the computer, and I am essentially
stressed about meeting a strange man, at his home, by myself.

This world is so crazy. I know that G'd has my back, but he gives us smarts about things
also. I may be worrying about nothing, he hasn't even sent me his address on where to
meet him. I think I may have a friend ride with me if he does though.

His Faithfulness
Today was an extra early 'get the move on' day. I now have 3 kids that want to study
the bible before school. My high schooler, who has to be at the bus by 6:40 am, plus
two younger ones. I think I'm going to have to do two sessions, so that the younger
ones aren't so tired.

Studying the bible makes me want to be a better person. I know that we are saved
by grace and not by works (Eph 2:8-9), but reading His word, in any order will draw
you closer to Him. Kind of like a child to a parent, I would assume. You see what you
are doing right, you see what you are doing wrong, and you want that parent to look
pleasingly on you.

Hope you all have an awesome day!

HUGGZZ
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Reward Meal
Corned beef and swiss on rye
Sweet potato fries
kosher pickle
Spinach salad with cukes, tomatoes, black olives, shredded cheese, fried onions,
     sunflower seeds-ranch

3 cups coffee, 2 liters water

Dealing With Stress

Weight: 285.2                       Total: -37.8

I am hoping the sickness has past, and am glad that I didn't gain from what 

I ate last night. At around 3 pm I was famished, so I decided to have my 

RM early, and that was a mistake. Too much, too fast. With in 30 minutes 

or so it was all in the commode. 

A few hours later, I tried again, slower this time and it stayed. 

I have a lot on my mind this morning. Mostly financial. I am a bit stressed about 

it. I start a new job that I am very excited about, but I won't see any fruits from 

that until Dec 26th! I'm not too worried about Christmas. It's just main things like 

rent and phone.

Basically, I was betting on the girl I was babysitting for, and spent money on winter 

clothes for the kids. Then she quit her job, and left owing me money. I know it will 

be okay. It is just stressful not knowing where it'll come from, especially since I 

haven't had any side jobs for about a month.

My husband works hard, and pays most of the bills. He just doesn't make enough 

to foot the bill by himself, and having seven kids is a big bill!

So, today is a new day, and I feel mostly alive. Hopefully, I can make it through 

without a violent trip to the loo!

Hope all of your needs are met today! Have an awesome day!

HUGGZZ

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SICK

Weight: 285.1                                Total: -37.9

I have had a stomach virus for the past day and a half and the scale is showing it.
Hopefully I will feel better by Monday to get the kids to meet Santa.

Will check in tomorrow, not much to say except...BLAHHH!

HUGGZZ

HO! HO! HO!

Weight: 290.3

Hi all! Today Jude will meet Santa for the first time! I am a little excited. I
really never did the magical Santa with any of the other kids. I am not even
sure why I am doing it now.

When I was young I believed in the man with all my heart. I would even
sneak letters to the mailbox to him throughout the year telling him about
things in school, about friends and family...like a one-way pen pal.

By the time my friend told me that Santa was "dead," I already had trust
issues with my parents. I decided shortly after that, that I would not lie to
my kids. Not even about Santa.

My children always knew the real story of St. Nick, and that mom and dad bought
the presents in tradition, to keep the spirit of St. Nicholas alive. Also, of course,
to celebrate with the world the birth of J'sus...even though his birthday is during
Sukkot in the fall.

That worked until a couple of years ago. One day Bella came home from
preschool extremely excited. With wonder abounding, she retold a story
that a fellow classmate had shared with her.

On Christmas eve, a fat happy man was going to come to everyone's house and
deliver presents under the tree. She went on and on about flying reindeer and his
beard, and the "HO HO HO" thing. At that very moment, I had to decide whether
to dash her spirit now or play it out and see how it goes.

I looked at my oldest daughter China as she watched me intently to see what I'd
do. My heart tangled, I said "yes, of course, how else would all those presents
get here?" China's jaw dropped, and I knew as soon as the girl had a two seconds
with me I'd get the third degree interrogation that I deserved.

So, there's the story.  I love Christmas, and I hate lying to my kids. I feel like if you
lie about something little, you'll lie about something big. But here I am lying, and
excited about it! I feel my morals diminish by second.

Hope you all have a wonderful day! Remember the reason for the season, and have
patience with one another.

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
ham
cauliflower

Complimentary Meal
more ham

Reward Meal
meatloaf
scalloped potatoes
asparagus
duplex cookies
coke
milk

3 cups coffee, 2 liters water

A New Obsession

Weight: 289.1                      

Back down a pound! Yea! That was after going to the "feeding troth" also. I tried
to stay slightly moderate, by eating a salad and lots of veggies, before commencing
upon the good stuff.

I was a bit of a piggy, but stayed within my hour. I also found a new obsession, white
chocolate covered strawberries. Oh my, they are sinful! I have decided to make some
for Christmas gifts.

Today I was supposed to start training for a new job, but the lady hasn't called back for
confirmation. I am a bit concerned about that, but she seemed excited about having me
aboard.

I need this job. I need something I can sit at while going back to school. I also need to
get on top of the applications to get there by January. I ran into some friend's the other
night, he is starting his own ambulance service. He said to go for medical encoding. I am
just not sure I'd be happy with that.

Belle is already up asking about bible study. Catch it while it's hot!

Hope you have an awesome day!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Steak
Scrambled eggs
Green beans

Reward Meal (not exact)
Spinach and spring salad with beets, black olives, cukes, green pepper-ranch
collards
cabbage
green beans
mashed potatoes
fried chicken
3 bites steak
yeast rolls with honey butter
white chocolate covered strawberries
a bite of brownie
a bite of banana pudding
(uh looks like a ton but all the good stuff was a bite of this two bites of that. The veggies
were the majority)

Trip To The Troth

Weight: 290.1

I had a regular CAD day yesterday. The scale still registered at the same, so
nothing lost. Maybe tomorrow. I need to do better on my water, but I think
I am just tired of it.

I have an awesome brunch planned today. Steak and eggs...yum yum! I can't
wait. Then tonight we are celebrating my stepdaughter's birthday at Golden
Corral. Yes, the "feeding troth!" She wants to try the new chocolate fountains.

I am confident that I will stay in control, because they have enough good stuff
to choose from, that I can fill up on that.

I slept pretty restlessly last night, and have had a hard time just feeling alive
enough to be productive. Hopefully after this coffee kicks in??

Hope you all have an awesome day!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
2 bowls of collards

Complimentary Meal
bowl of collards
Carolina BBQ

Reward Meal
Collards
Spinach salad with beets, cukes, tomatoes, 3 bean salad, shredded cheddar,
    black olives, onions, green pepper-ranch
Green bean casserole
Spiral sliced ham
Brown n Serve rolls
duplex cookies

3 cups coffee, 2 liters water

We All Stumble Sometimes

The damage report is in and as of this morning I am almost 4 pounds up. I
weighed 290.1, and I am not too upset, it's just time to move on.

Last night I went to the grocery store and bought me some low carb favorites
to keep me on the path. A huge pot of collards is simmering on the stove. I also
bought 3 bunches of asparagus.

I know I am going to win this battle of fat, I know it very well now. Last night I
had two dreams. In one I was running, and there wasn't anything chasing me...I
was just running! The second one later on, I was crying...because I couldn't fit
running into my schedule. Ha! Ha!

Hopefully now that I've taken a few days off, I can actually get past 286. Cross
your fingers for me!

Have an awesome day!

HUGZZ

Off The Path

Truthfully, I have been off my way of eating for 3 days now. First it was
Thanksgiving, then on Friday I tried to switch up my my reward meals to
have my reward at lunch. Eating carbs in the day time is a big no no, and
I won't be trying that again, I felt like I wanted to hibernate for the rest of
the day.

Yesterday, I did well until I decided that I was going to drink while decorating
the tree. Word to the wise decorate then drink! After not drinking for 2 years,
I have become a lightweight. I really don't drink much at all anyways, my longest
dry run was about 7 years.

I was getting a bit dizzy putting on the lights and garland, and now there is much
repair needed before dressing the tree with ornaments!

So, today there is no excuses! I am back and ready to take on this challenge. By
the way, the reason I haven't been reporting my weight is because I can not find my
scale! I have to weigh in the kitchen because the floor is  not level in the bathroom,
and someone has moved it to an unknown location! I'll post a weight tomorrow. Not
sure that I want to see the damage anyways!

Have an awesome day people!!!

HUGGZZ

A Brand New Day

Weight: 288.6

I couldn't expect better. For the past two days I haven't been drinking water
like I usually do, not even close. Then I went a little off yesterday with it being
Thanksgiving. I just didn't want a low carb lunch. It may be TMI, but very
relevant to the issue, I haven't been to the bathroom in over 2 days as well.

Pulling my bootstraps up this morning though, and getting on with the show.
I usually don't feel the desire to detour, and I don't feel guilty. Those chocolate
covered cherries were out of this world good!

I spent my day away from home with my Uncle. It is the first holiday we've been
able to spend together in a few years, and with his health declining, it was not
even an option to stay away.

So, while Hubby and his kids had dinner with Dad, I and mine spent it away.
All in all it was a good holiday though.

I hope all of you and yours had a wonderful holiday. My food posts will continue
tomorrow!

HUGGZZ

Trying Something New

Half The Girl
Weight: 286.6               Total: -36.4

I actually had a really good low carb day yesterday. I guess the third time is a
charm, but I still stayed at the same weight, and even felt a little deprived at
dinner, while everyone enjoyed the roasted red potatoes.

So, if something fails, try something new...right?! From here on out at my reward
meals I am going to eat a salad, a cup of yogurt, and a fruit...then continue with
whatever else may fit. Let's see how that goes!

His Faithfulness

I don't have much time today. Bella and Jericho want me to wake them early
for hot chocolate and muffins while we study the bible. I just can't believe, I
have kids that want to get up and study. Rob said it was for the goodies, but
that was my idea after they both asked for some time in the morning.

We are going to be studying "38 Things That Happen When We Get Saved".
Lately I have noticed myself trying to draw nearer to Him, it's not an effort
thing for the most part. It is an actual yearning over all the other distractions in
life.

I'm guessing that it is due to my children growing closer to Him that has spurred
this. He has been faithful to me, even when I am not to Him. I have always found
myself trying to draw nearer when my life was in shambles, then after the storm
resuming normal life. This is shameful, but it is truth.

My life is not in shambles though. This is more than discipline, this is a weighing
need and desire. A desire to seek His face, and a need to feel His presence.

I did not intend to speak a lot about my faith on this blog, and whether or not,
anyone reads this segment that seems to be forming. I just need to write about it.

I hope you all have an awesome day! Shalom!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
2 hard boiled eggs

Complimentary Meal
Braunschweiger
Spinach with mozzarella

Reward Meal
Baked chicken breast
broccoli

2 cups coffee, 1 gallon water

The Bounce

Weight: 286.6                         Total: -36.4

I'm starting to think it is just not meant for me to have a low carb day. I tried
the day before yesterday, and burned it. Then yesterday I tried, and it went
all to heck again.

Hubby offered to make me cabbage and kielbasa for dinner. So, I went and
picked up some more. When I went to sit at the table I noticed potatoes in it!
Aaargh, he was so well meaning, and I didn't have the heart to decline since
he thought he was doing something nice.

Since I was eating the potatoes I went ahead and had a normal reward meal.
I keep doing this 1 pound bounce back and forth, and not making any real
progress. It's really not that big of a deal to me, but I will attempt it again today.

Wednesday I have an interview, I guess you would call it, for a full time nanny
position. I am super excited about it. I would be taking care of a 2 year old and
a 4 year old. I told them that I would expect Jude to come along as well. It didn't
seem like it would be a problem.

Hope you have an awesome day!
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Complimentary Meal
pepperoni and provolone

Reward Meal
Cabbage, POTATOES, and kielbasa
Stromboli
ice cream sandwich
cornbread

3 cups of coffee, 1 gallon water

Ho Hum...

Weight: 287.7

I burnt my low carb day...no, seriously I burned it! Just as I put the food on the
stove to cook, the phone rang. Dad wanted to Skype with Jericho to help him
study for his tests next week. I fuddled around and around with the computer,
because it would not call him.

Just as I hung up, I could smell something burning. It was my cauliflower. At least
I had my kielbasa and cabbage, right?! Well, I thought I had turned it down when
I returned to the computer, and finally got the Skype to work only to find the mic
wasn't turned on. By the time I gave up on finding the control for the mic, I AGAIN
could smell burning.

I actually cooked dinner twice.The second time I made chili. I was super sad this
morning to see the scale had bounced upwards a pound again. If I was on any
other way of eating, I would want to give up. I am in this for the long haul though.

Total satisfaction, by the way I eat, and I get to lose weight too. Well, at least I
was losing weight with it. I really want to get this fat suit off that I've been lugging
around almost my whole life.

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
cabbage and kielbasa (what I could salvage)

Reward Meal
chili
cornbread
6 hershey kisses
milk

3 cups of coffee, 1 gallon water

Gotta Get It Going!

Weight: 286.6                       Total: -36.4

Really?! How long MUST I sit at this weight?? I am going to make a huge
pot of cabbage and kielbasa with mock mashed potatoes today. I think I'm going
to do a low carb day to try to get things moving a bit! Even if I just move a pound
or two and it stays off, it's better than staying at the same weight for weeks!

There is only a month left to lose 12 more pounds before Christmas, it's starting to
look a little bleak for meeting the challenge! MUST-TRY-HARDER!!

I don't have much to say today, so I will wish you all the best and an awesome day!
Don't give up on your dreams!!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
2 eggs scrambled with spinach, smoked ham, and cheese

Reward Meal
Spinach salad with cukes, tomatoes, onions, and black olives-bals. vinaigrette
Homemade stromboli with smoked ham, low sodium peps, colby monterey
     shredded cheese, black olives, tomato, and onion
4 duplex cookies with milk
Small part of Hubby's sub
1/2 egg roll

Home

Weight:  287.6

I was up a pound and some today, but I think it's because I slept in this morning. I
usually weigh myself between 4-6 am, and I slept in until after 8 today.

After synagogue, I stayed up late trialing some new games with Hubby that he rented.
I do have to say I am so glad that he has started to do this. So much money was going
out to buy games, that we rarely play. He even went and bought me a copy this year of
Tomb Raider (among a couple other lame games),  because I liked the previews.
Seriously, I have maybe played it 5 times! I just can't get into it.

Last night I played the new Assassin's Creed. I think I may like it. Hubby played
The Last Of Us. We will probably buy each other these games for Christmas, hopefully
not in place of my camera though!!

It was really nice being in synagogue again last night. I felt like I was home. There were
even people we knew from our last congregation there. That just sweetened the pot!

Well, it's time to start the day. I hope you and yours are doing
well. Have an awesome day!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Spinach antipasto salad-ranch
kielbasa and mustard

Reward Meal
Spinach salad cukes, tomatoes-ranch
Meat spaghetti with whole wheat pasta
Garlic cheesy bread
Cookies and milk

4 cups coffee, 3 liters water

Revealed

Weight: 286.3                  Total: -36.7 lbs

Good Morning! I am feeling pretty good today, hopefully that means I will
get a lot accomplished. I think I am going to go for a walk today. The past
week has been pretty much a complete waste.

Earlier this week I was nailed to my couch because of my cycle. Lots of pain,
and had lost my medication. Then for the past 2 days have been plagued with
head aches, that I actually think are coming from smoking cigarettes.

It comes also with a horrible taste in my mouth. I think it's about time to quit.
I found my vapor cigarette and charged it, but I don't like the taste of that either.
So, is G'd taking the desire away? I hope so! I have been wanting to quit for a
long time. This summer I even prayed earnestly about it.

You can call me weird, or whatever you like, but it was revealed to me that smoking
was just a symptom of something else inside that needed to be fixed. That when that
was fixed, the smoking would go too.

Well, I have 30 minutes before the house wakes up, and there is no privacy. So I am
going to get off of this computer and do something productive!! Not sure what...but
SOMETHING!

Have an awesome day people!!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
1 hard boiled egg
2 Jr. Bacon Cheeseburgers (no bun)
Yellow squash and Cauliflower in butter

Reward Meal
Biscuits with sausage gravy
Eggs
Corn beef hash
Orange juice
1 slice Pumpkin roll
1/4 Tiramisu roll

Staying Focused

Weight: 286.3            Total: -36.7             (Christmas Challenge:   -1.7/14= 12.3 lbs left )

Yea! All the nasty water weight is gone, and I feel almost normal! I did feel a bit
frustrated yesterday, but knowing I have all the water weight plus some finally off
makes me a bit cheerier.

Oh buggars, I want a tree up and a menorah! I only have seven days left to get
ready for Hanukkah. I do celebrate both. Hanukkah for my personal beliefs and
Christmas for the rest of my family. It's a long story, don't judge me and I won't
judge you!

In just a few pounds I will be smaller than I have been in close to 12 years. Heck,
I may already be at that point, because I can't remember the last time I weighed in
at this weight.

I feel a bit hyped this morning, I think I might be ready to press in again, and get
another big chunk of this weight off!!

Hope you all are all feeling motivated too! Have an awesome day!
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Complimentary Meal
2 1/2 cups of antipasto salad

Complimentary Meal
Yellow squash
Baked chicken

Reward Meal
1/2 piece stuffed pizza
1 piece of regular
2 ice cream sandwiches

2 cups coffee, 1 gallon water

Frustration

Weight: 288.2                                       Total: -34.8

I'm getting a tad frustrated with my weight loss. Last week I did not lose at all.
This week I lost 2 lbs then gained it back. I know that it probably has to do with
water retention from my cycle. I thought I would slide through today since it was
my 3rd day on and I have been supremely good with my sodium. Ho hum...

Last night I had this beautifully healthy and tasty meal before me, and I could barely
eat anything. Two days of pain had just left a knot in my stomach. I ate as much as
I could.

I want to make this Christmas challenge so bad. If I succeed, it will mean a total of
50 pounds gone, gone, gone! When I look back at it though, this has been my tough
spot for probably 10 years. I get to about 287 and no matter what I can't lose.

Today for my brunch I plan on having mock mashed potatoes and baked chicken. I
have some antipasto salad left from lunch yesterday also. I may just have that for
dinner.

I did get in touch with the girl I babysit for. She is at least alive, but I am not sure if I
will babysit for her anymore.

I know this is not a very exciting piece today, but I want to be faithful to you. I have
had so much positive feed back, and it inspires me to keep going!

Thank you! Have an awesome day people!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
9 hot wings-ranch
2 cups antipasto salad plus raw spinach

Reward meal
Baked chicken
Cauliflower and butter
Broccoli and butter
1/2 baked sweet potato
a few pieces of roasted redskin potatoes
(I had a little of everything, and I mean a little! Ham Bone and Mr. O'Malley were happy pets!)

Christmas Challenge

Good morning. I skipped yesterday, because I was plagued with cramps and I
just was in no mood to sit up straight. Thankfully, I was allowed to lay on the
couch most of the day. When Hubby saw me hunched over trying to make dinner,
he shewed me back to the couch and finished it up for me.

It wouldn't have been too bad if I hadn't have lost my medication! It was in my
purse a few weeks ago and has now vanished. We have torn the house up looking
for it. I'm going to have to call the Dr and have it called in I guess.

It's days like this, that make me consider getting a hysterectomy. I was offered one,
but even though I'm finished having kids...I don't want to lose my parts. Maybe I'm
afraid I'll feel less like a woman? I don't know.

Anywho, I have gained about 1.5 pounds from retention, and since I am now in a
challenge, I hope they slide off quickly. My support group came up with the idea
of  losing 1 stone or 14 lbs by Christmas.

We made it an official post, and now have about 7 people revving up! It's very exciting
to see so much enthusiasm! If it had been something more thought out we could have
made it a fund raiser for a good cause.

All in all, everything is good here. I am looking for more side work, I haven't heard from
Hannah the girl I was babysitting for at all! I have called and text with no reply. Hopefully,
she is alright, regardless of needing to work. She still owes me money, but I don't even
care about that.

I hope all of you have a wonderful and inspiring day!
HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Atkins frozen dinner ( crustless chicken pot pie)

Reward Meal
Fried pork chops
Brussel sprouts
Spinach salad with cukes, tomato, fried onion, shredded cheese-Balsamic vinaigrette
Ice cream sandwich

G'd is Good

Weight: 286.8                Total: -36.2

Today was a very nice day so far. I am writing a bit later than usual because
we went to church for my oldest, and first child to be baptized. It was very
nice to be in a house of G'd.

I had a moment of fleshly desire to correct the pastor as he preached on
biblical accuracy, because he wasn't completely accurate. I let the urgency
pass. I will though gather the information for him, so that he may be
corrected by The Word, and not personally by me.

I did find that most of his sermon was in line and it was a very inspiring.
London Bridge Baptist church has done so much for my children, and for
their presence in their life I am very thankful.

If you can not hear what is being said: "China got saved during VBS this
summer and amazingly she did it in front of all of her friends, who have
no desire to know G'd."

It was very awesome that the person who performed the baptisms, gave
my daughter a personal shout out for her courage in the face of adversity.
I may need to swallow my pride today, as I feel like a peacock flaunting
it's feathers!


Next month my daughter Bella, and my son Jericho, are to be baptized.
I will say this, I approach my faith by trying to be an example and being
open. It is especially wonderful, that they are doing this on their own
accord.

I hope that you have an exceptionally wonderful and inspiring day also.

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
2 bacon, egg, and cheese Mcgriddles (without the cakes)

Reward Meal
3 pieces of fried chicken (2 legs, 1 thigh)
potato salad
baked beans with bacon
2 deviled eggs
small cup sweet tea
1/2 piece yellow cake with traditional icing
1/4 piece of coconut cake ( I really didn't enjoy either one and left it for waste)

Common Things

Weight:286.8                        Total: -36.2

I guess I dropped two pounds, and now I'm going to stay here a bit. That's
alright. It's really the least on my mind.

I'm starting a new morning schedule today. I have found that I get very side
tracked by Google+, Facebook, and my addiction to Bejeweled Blitz. It tends
to consume too much of my day.

I wake up between 4-6 am and until 9 or so I'm on the computer. Then off
and on until after dinner when I log my food. I am becoming increasingly
annoyed with myself and am now going to set limits.

I also am very upset with the girl I babysit for. I understand that right now
she doesn't know what she is doing from day to day. When I woke up I
was supposed to be babysitting at 2 pm.

I had planned to stop by the store for us to have an ice cream party, so at
1 pm when I was getting ready to walk out the door she called and said
she got another offer and wasn't going back to the store, but could I watch
them later so she could turn in her stuff, and meet with her husband.

I said sure, just drop the kids off, we'll do the party here. No call, no show.
I even tried to call her, and no one answered. I completely understand the
chaotic life. I have seven kids. You wouldn't believe how many times I change
things up in a day.

It's a "go with the flow" thing and priorities have to be changed constantly.
If you are planning with someone else though, you need to give them a shout
out at the very least. Even if you think they might be upset.

I have one friend who has multiple children, but only half the amount that I
have. We will plan to have dinner at say 6 pm. I'll have dinner on the table,
or be sitting there waiting if I am lucky for another hour. I have even
experienced a 2 hour delay, called her, and she hasn't left the house yet.

Is it hard to figure out why I don't arrange things with her very often? I am
not saying that I am completely clean of delay. Ever since I had James, my
oldest son, I have fought the clock. Just as I would have everything packed,
kids dressed, and about to walk out the door, Jimmy would scream to nurse.
By the time he finished, China would need to be changed because she had
gotten into the fridge or something.

It never failed. It took me 2 hours to get ready to do anything. Therefore, I
stopped making appointments for the most part, and only did so on days that
I had extra hands to help get me out the door. I know not everyone has this
luxury, neither did I but I did my best. At the very least made a phone call
to let the other party know.

It is just common courtesy, one of the values that have flown out the window
of society with it's partner common sense. I miss it.

The Good, The Okay's and The Stay Away's

Good: I haven't written for this section in a while. I tried Flatout Flatbread last night,
in exchange for Italian bread for my sub. It has 17 g of carbohydrates per piece. It
can be used for pizza, wraps, or sandwiches. Hint: if you are going to toast your meat
and cheese on it, like I did make sure the meat and cheese fill out the entire bread,
because it does get stiff, then breaks like a cracker. The side with the meat and
cheese stayed soft.

If it interests you, you can click the link and check to see who is selling it in your area!
Flatout Flatbread

My time is up, I have my first real photo shoot today, and then off to celebrate
James' birthday! My boy is 15!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
cheeseburger (no bun)
1 can (no salt) green beans with butter
3 dill hamburger chips

Reward Meal
Homemade Italian subs (mine on Flatout Flat Bread)
Sweet potato fries with chipolte seasoning
Keylime pie with cool whip

3 cups coffee, almost a gallon of water

Me Time

Weight: 286.8       Total: -36.2 lbs

Finally, some "Me Time!" The past few days I have been a little slack about
writing, choosing sleep over me time. Everyone in the house has a bit of
a cold and it seems as though I had caught a fraction of what everyone else
has.

I take so many vitamins, I think I missed it for the most part. No fever, only
minor sinus upset, and a small cough. Instead of a sore throat, mine feels fuzzy
and tickly (there's a new word for you). I have felt a tad fatigue though, but
just a little.

So, I wake up and make a deal with myself. If I weigh and lose, I will write today.
If not, I go cuddle on the couch with Ham Bone and Mr. O'Malley! Here, I am.
I haven't done anything special to lose weight except for stay on plan. Being patient
with the scale has been a lot easier these days.

(Ham Bone)

                                                       (Mr. Thomas O'Malley)

I think I've just gotten to the point that I am happy with life in general. I have lost
a significant amount of weight. I look better, feel better. I have a long way to go,
but the sense of urgency is gone. I don't look in the mirror or see the number on
the scale and panic.

If I stay on plan and enjoy my food, I still have a projected loss of almost 60 lbs
by June and that is close to 100 pounds in less than a year. That's a pretty good
result for getting to eat like a normal person, for the most part.

There has also been a minefield of other things going on. Too much to put into
words. The school system had me up in arms for about two days straight. I
didn't dare go to the school. I was so mad, I was likely to unleash a strangling
onto one of those educated idiots!

I think that situation has finally concluded.  I am relieved and fairly happy with
the result, what would make me happiest is some educators that had a smidgen
of common sense. I know that is probably reaching too high.

The person, I babysit for has been having a ton of issues with her new job. I am
on stand by, basically, because her job doesn't know how to schedule people
to work. They have been giving her a day to day notice. This is just one of the
issues. So, now she is trying to find something else. At least, she is staying with
the one until she finds another (knock on wood).

As of right now I get to watch the girls today, Yea! I am planning an ice cream
party with them. No, I will not take part, maybe after dinner if I feel like desert.

I was a little disappointed this week. I had gotten a side job with a lady to take
care of her back yard. I was excited that I had enough money to do some
Christmas shopping, get my son a birthday present, and buy a new tree.

I had to drop off some paper work, and I stole a parking spot in the neighboring
Auto Zone, so I could optimize my time in and out, then still make it to the bank
to deposit it. When I came out, my van wouldn't start! Yea! There went the extra
money!

Now here is where your prospective in life makes the difference. I had no idea I
needed a new battery. The car just so happened to die in the Auto Zone parking lot.
Because I had an side job, I actually had the money in hand to pay for it, and go on
about my day. The manager even signed me up for a reward card that took $10 off
of my purchase which allowed me to still buy a present for my boy.

Things could have been so much worse. I could have broke down somewhere else,
and have to be towed. I might of had to locate money from other means. All in all
I believe G'd was looking out for me. I didn't know there was a problem, but he did.
He orchestrated a situation, which made life so much easier for me. Giving me favor
at every turn!

I hope you all have a wonderful day. Keep a good prospective and thank G'd for even
the small stuff! In everything (good and bad) give Him praise! 1 Thess 5:18

Thanks for checking in!

HUGGZZ
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Complimentary Meal
Homemade double cheeseburger (no bun)
1/2 can of (no salt) green beans with butter and salt sub.

Reward Meal
2 cups spaghetti (meat with sauce and wheat pasta)
2 slices garlic bread

4 cups coffee, 1 gallon water